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Will You Be the One?

Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. Mathew 28:19,20


Be the One

In a world full of broken dreams…Where the truth is hard to find…For every promise that is kept…There are many left behind…though it seems that nobody cares…It still matters what you do…Cause there’s a difference you can make…But the choice is up to you.

Chorus: Will you be the one to answer to His call…Will you stand when those around you fall…To take His light into a darkened world…Tell me will you be the one?

Oh sometimes it’s so hard to know who is right and what is wrong…And where are you suppose to stand when the battle lines are drawn…There’s a voice that is calling out for someone whose not afraid…To be a beacon in the night to a world that’s lost it’s way.

Chorus: Yes, I’ll be the one to answer to His call…I will stand when those around me fall…I will be the one totake His light into a darkened world…I WILL BE THE ONE.


So flashback July 4thish 1995….this really seems like ages ago and now that I figure it out it is almost 20 years ago. Wow!!! Time has flown by so quickly.So why the flashback you might ask? Or maybe not:>) The past 6 weeks I have been walking after supper to unwind, breath, reflect and just spend some time with God. It’s been good for my body and good for my heart as on one of these walks He reminded me of this particular time. As I reflected, this moment was an outward praise and prayer of what He began doing in me. I remember standing in Los Colinas, Tx with 1000’s of people and singing this song and feeling I was the only person there. Singing out to Him with conviction and with and overflowing passion to be an instrument in His orchestra. “Yes, Lord…I will be the one to answer to your call…I will stand when those around me fall…I will be the one to take His light into a darkened world…YES, LORD, I WILL BE THE ONE.”

I had been thinking about how I came to this point and questioning and just tracing back to moments of significance. Moments like these. When you know, that you know, you were in the presence of God…even with 1000’s of people around. I’ve had other moments like these where I was brought to my knees or the times I could here His the small still voice, but why this moment? As I continued to walk and reflect and just press into the One who knows me I realized He was reminding me of this commitment I made to Him. You see I said Yes, Lord and when I did…I meant it with all my heart, mind, soul and strength. What I didn’t know is how. What I also didn’t know is that the journey I was on with all the struggles and uncertainty. With all the ups and downs. With the many lessons I would walk through and learn, prepared me for the unexpected. You see I always thought I would be coaching swimming until He decided to bring me home. I thought the pool deck was my mission field and the athletes, parents and coaches were those I would be sharing the Light of Jesus with.

For almost 15 years I coached with the Dallas Mustangs and that commintment I made to be the One was the mission I took. It was also a training field for me as I learned to be more bold in my faith and really learn how to share the love of Jesus. I had some very sweet moments over those years seeing the Lord teach and mold these athletes, parents and coaches. God granted me favor in so many ways in sharing my faith and also praying with the athletes I coached. I continue to pray for many of them today as my heart still breaks for those that don’t know Him. I pray that God would send other men and women of God that would lead them to Him. I pray that they would see how much Jesus loves them and that He is the only Way, Truth and Life. I pray for their hearts to hunger and thirst for Him. There are days when the enemy likes to taunt me about these kids and tell me I didn’t do enough or say enough or that I really didn’t make a difference. It’s on those days I recieve a short note or e-mail from one who tells me diffrently. I love God’s timing in this!!! I love the fact that I still have the opportunity to encourage and speak truth into these young people via e-mail, facebook or Vox.I may not be walking up and down the pool deck with them anymore, but the relationships God continues to build through prayer. I love it!!

This morning I was woken up early with a huge storm, not only outside, but inside my heart. As I laid there in bed I began thinking about these kids and their relationship with Jesus. The tears were on the verge of escaping, because they may know of Jesus, but they may not  know Him in a personal way. Then I began to think about my courageous brothers and sisters around the world who are being persecuted because they walk hand in hand with Christ. It simply made me weep even more, but with a hope. The hope of knowing that I will meet and see them in heaven. Will I see these kids, their parents or the coaches I worked with?

Today churches around the world are gathering today in buildings, under trees,in huts,  underground, in military tents that have been burned (that would be us!) in homes in silence or in undisclosed locations to worship Jesus together as one body. The day has been set aside to pray for the persecuted church and as I read and listen to  stories of those who have courageously forgiven their enemies and have died proclaiming Jesus, my heart cries out for the hurting and the lost. Times are changing fast and none of us knows what tomorrow may bring. To many of us are living in fear of the “What if” or maybe even the fear of the “When.” And then there are those that are sticking their head in the sand and denying everything that is going on the world. If we are living or paralyzed by fear are we living God’s way? His way tells us to go into ALL the world and make disciples. He didn’t say only preachers or teachers or people that went to Bible College….HE SAID ALL!! That means you and that means me!!

Friends…if you do not have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ will you begin seeking Him. He knows you!! Do you know Him? Will you repent of your sins and trust Jesus Christ alone for salvation? He is waiting with open arms…come as you are!!

If you know Him…WILL YOU BE THE ONE? Will you trust Him? Will you step out of the boat? When you keep your eyes on Him you’ll find you are able to walk on water and that He will do immeasureably more than we could ever ask or imagine!!

Remember those in prison, as if you were there yourself. Remember also those being mistreated, as if you felt their pain in your own bodies. Hebrews 13:3 PRAY!!


In the Arms of His Embrace

Psalm 143:8 “Let the morning bring me word of Your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in You. Show me the way I should go, for to You I lift up my soul.”

Sunday morning I awoke ready to spend time with my brothers and sisters in worhsip, but there was a small emptinness and ache within me that I couldn’t seem to shake. As I spent some time in His Word and in prayer I simpley asked Go to embrace me in His arms this day and experience more of His unfailing love and His Presence. My heart needed a touch from the Lord.

I got up, collected my Bible and my bag and headed out the door. As I headed toward the church and old hymn came to my mind…
“Love lifted to me…Love lifted me…when nothing else will do!!…Love lifted me.” In the arms of His embrace!!

It is interesting how those old choruses resonate in my heart and just just when I need encouoragement God brings them to my mind and sings them over me. I love how God touches and moves in this way. I was also remindedd of where these songs first took root within me and the bofdy of believers that poured into me, loved me, faithfully prayed for me, encouraged me and led me to Jesus. I can picture many of them now singing with hearts for Our Lord and Savior. I can hear their voices in my own heart. Such a sweet, sweet sound and even sweeter memories!! My roots go down deep, becasuse of the believers at Potsdam Church of the Brethern. I thank my God in remembrance of you and the foundation you poured into me as I grew in the knowledge and the accepting by faith, Jesus Christ!!! Mesi Jezi!!

I sat in service and tried hard to follow the sermon from Romans 12:1-2. It’s not that I was distracted (though I certainly can be:) , but it is always a struggle for me to understand all of the sermon in the Haitian language. I do have to say I understand a whole lot more than I did last year at this time…so I’m making progress:) Plus we had a visiting Pastor preaching and he spoke way to fast for me!!! 8) lol

As service progressed one of our ladies from our Bible study moved back to the benches that were in front of me with her 2 little ones. Her little girl who is about 3 or 4 and her son who is about 6. I hadn’t seen her kids for well over a year in church. I began making faces with the little girl who was being curious and looking at me and then hiding her face. Most of you know how I am with kids, so you can imagine the silliness we were enjoying:) She stopped for a brief moment to whisper something to her mama and then she got up and came back with me. She touched my arm and smiled and then she gave me a big hug. I picked her up and sat her on my lap and she snuggled up close to my chest and held me tight, like I’d known her forever. I haven’t had any real contact with this precious little one accept when she was born. Her mama had a difficult delivery and we really believed she might lose the baby. God thought otherwise!! Praise the Lord!!! A group of us ladies went to visit her after she was born and prayed over them and now she is growing and has such a joy within her.

As service began to finish we stood up to sing the last song. I held this little one in my arms and she embraced me tight putting her cheek next to mine. In that moment a wave of love washed over me and tears began to flow from my eyes. She stopped and looked into my eyes with such amazing love and compassion, trying to wipe away the tears then she pressed her cheek back to mine and hugged me even tighter. As she embraced me I embraced her in return praying over her, not knowing fully how her homelife was like. You see she has a beautiful mama that loves Jesus, but I also know her daddy doesn’t like them coming to our church and he has tried to cause problems in the past. As I prayed over her I felt her rest in the security of my arms. She let out a big sigh and dropped her head to my shoulder as if to say “I’m at peace and I can rest.”

My heart and her heart, this day, felt the embrace of Jesus. He answered my hearts prayer in a way I did not expect. It’s just like Him to use the life of a child with me. He knows me and knows what I need at just the right time. He lifts up my soul as I trust in His unfailing love and as He loves me He shows me how to love even deeper still. For this I am eternally grateful!! There is nothing sweeter than being in the embrace and presence of the Lord!!

Who in your cirlce of influence is in need of His embrace? Be the arms of His embrace today!!

It has been way too long since I’ve actually blogged here. I’ve been doing short little snippets…ok sometimes long:)…on my Facebook posts and I have just not been motivated to write or do anything more than this. It’s been almost a year since my last post and God has been doing some renovations in this heart of mine as I continue to love and serve the Haitian people, so you may be hearing a bit more from me in the days and weeks to come.





Will You Love Jesus More

After posting a little message about Gabe Thurs. on facebook about him running to my door at 10 at night to tell me his Bible verse and a couple other posts…I recieved some sweet e-mails, instant messages and replies to these posts. I was deeply touched and encouraged, but I also have been struggling a bit. I have never been one who was good at taking compliments. It’s hard to know what to say in return.  With all of this I began thinking of the kids I used to coach. Many who are not kids any longer. Some are married with children, some are getting ready to be married, some are attending college and some are taking steps for Grad School or finding a job. Many I still follow and keep in contact with and I am richly blessed to be able to do so. Many God brings to my heart and mind as I continue to lift them up to the Father. I have sweet precious memories of these young people. One thing that has weighed on my heart the past couple of days is their relationship with Jesus Christ or if they really know Him. The song below speaks of this…not to just them, but in all that I do. My hearts desire is for those I have the opportunity to meet and to know is that when we go our seprate ways that they will love Jesus more and some cases will they come to know Jesus!!!

Follow my example as I follow the example of Jesus Christ…I Cor. 11:1

I feel quite sure if I did my best
I could maybe impress you
With tender words and a harmony
A clever rhyme or two

But if all I’ve done in the time we’ve shared
Is turn your eyes on me
Then I’ve failed at what I’ve been called to do
There’s someone else I want you to see

Will you love Jesus more
When we go our different ways
When this moment is a memory
Will you remember His face
Will you look back and realize
You sensed His love more than you did before
I’d pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more

I’d like to keep these memories
In frames of gold and silver
And reminisce a year from now
About the smiles we’ve shared
But above all else I hope you will come
To know the Father’s love
When you see the Lord face to face

You’ll hear Him say “well done”


I’d pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more

*Phillips, Craig and Dean


Now I know in my heart and in my head that it is not me who changes the hearts of those who God places along my road. That it is He who works in the hearts of each person. It probably didn’t help my heart to sit down and watch the movie last night “Left Behind”. This life is so very short and when God calls me home I want to be able to someday see those I walked this journey with in heaven with me. I share with the Ladies Discipleship groups that many know Jesus. They know His name. They know the stories, but I ask them…Do You Know Him? Really Know Him? Then I ask them if they know the President of Haiti. I ask them if they have had conversation with him…spent time with him getting to know him. Do you know his likes and dislikes? Everytime they say no. Then I ask do you really know Jesus? Have you spent time with Him? Do you know what He likes and dislikes? Do you really know what He has done for you? He wants a relationship….He wants us to love Him more…to dig deep into His Word to get to know Him. How will you know Him if you don’t spend time getting to know Him?

So…I continue to pray believing that the young people I love dearly and miss so much will come to know Jesus in a personal and intimate way. That they will hunger and thirst for Him. For He is the Only Way, the Only Truth and the Only Life!!! I pray for the young people God has placed on my path while I am here in Haiti….American and Haitian…that they will see Jesus in us and not us. That we (I) will decrease and He will increase. That they are drawn to what Jesus is doing here and not anything we (I) have done or said. I pray that we would be Instruments in our Redeemers hands….being used for His glory and purpose. I pray for our precious little ones that they will be raised to know and love Jesus with all their hearts, mind, soul and strength. That they will be a generation that turns this country toward Jesus. That His Light will overpower the darkness that is so prevelant in this community and country.

To my kids near and far…I love you so very much, but there is One who loves you even more and it is Him I desire you to know. Will you love Jesus more? This is my continual prayer for you!!!

(This may or may not make sense…but it is what is on my heart and felt led to share:)


I do want to thank all of you that send such sweet notes of encouragement, instant messages, voxes and posts that bless my heart and remind me who’s I am and that He’s not through with me just yet. Your faithful prayers and notes lift me in ways you will never know. In my weaknesses He really is making me stronger and I am grateful for the family and friends that walk with me and help me up when my knees feel like buckling or when I am flat on the floor. You help me keep my focus when “I step out of the boat to walk on water”…You help me stay the course and keep me accountable…You’re not aftraid to speak truth in love even when it might hurt…Simply put, you show me the hands, the feet, the face and embraces of Jesus. Thank you so very much!!!


While I am Waiting

While I’m Waiting

I’m waiting, I’m waiting on You Lord
And I am hopeful, I’m waiting on You Lord
Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting I will serve You
While I’m waiting I will worship
While I’m waiting I will not faint
I’ll be running the race even while I wait

I’m waiting, I’m waiting on You Lord
And I am peaceful, I’m waiting on You Lord
Though it’s not easy no, but faithfully I will wait
Yes, I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting I will serve You
While I’m waiting I will worship
While I’m waiting I will not faint
I’ll be running the race even while I wait

I will move ahead bold and confident
I’ll be taking every step in obedience, yeah

While I’m waiting I will serve You
While I’m waiting I will worship
While I’m waiting I will not faint

And I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You Lord

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting

John Waller II

I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. Psalm 40: 1

Waiting patiently…the above song has resonated in my heart since I was returned to the states this past Aug. It has become a reminder everyday and on some days my prayer and my cry, because there are some things I am wrestling and fighting to wait for and there are some things that are worth waiting for.

How can I wait patiently for the Lord? As I serve here in Haiti I am daily reminded and tested to wait patiently. I learn so much from my Haitian brothers and sisters in this area. I really thought I was a pretty patient person until I came to Haiti and God showed me I can use even more patience.  Almost everything we do here is hurry up and then wait. For the longest time I would get agitated and frustrated when things didn’t start on time. Growing up I was taught to be on time and for our family that meant being at least 10-15min. early. There were even times we showed up  earlier, especially during swim season. I carried that over into my adult life and even when I coached. There were only a hand full of times where I was late and when I was people called out the Calvary:>) I had built a trust with those I coached and they knew they could count on me to be there. I’ve had to loosen my grip on this…I still show up on time or early, but I don’t get agitated like before…I try to make it more of a teaching moment when need to.

We have waited 3 years to move out to the campus…it has been 3 years of ups and downs, twists and turns, joy, heartache and persecution.  I can say with confidence that it was needed. We needed to wait. We needed to get to know our community and build relationships with those in it and in our church. We needed to watch the women of our church…fruit inspectors if you will:>) Watch how they cared and interacted with their own children and the children in the community. We needed to see their hearts to be able to know who would love on and help raise the beautiful children we have now. There is a beauty in waiting and these momma’s are a gift from God.  Being on the campus now and hearing our kids from my room, hearing choir practice, playing with the kids and walking 1 min. to church now. Hearing or taking part in the all night prayer meetings or waking to them praying in the mornings…so worth the wait.

We wait for leading and guidance when it comes to the children of this town who are being abused, enslaved, molested, prostitued. We cry out to the Lord for His help and for ways to combat generational sins. This isn’t a culture thing as so many people tried to tell me…THIS IS A SIN PROBLEM…pure and simple. We wait as a clinic is being built to be able to help and minister to these children and to the many mothers that have been abused and raped.

We wait for a church to be built while we worship in a military tent…when and with what resources and who will provide? Only God knows and His timing is perfect…so we wait.

We wait as our desire is to have each of the children to have 10 branches on their Family Tree to be filled. Who will “Lov’em Like Jesus” ? Yes, we wait!! As we wait…we pray, Pray, PRAY!!!

We wait for the men in this community to realize who they are in Christ and how much we need strong Godly men to lead…in the community, in the church and in our homes. This is particularly heavy on my heart as I pray Psalm 128. We wait.

Personally…I wait for those that I love to surrender and give their hearts to Jesus. I wait for the many young people that I know and love to give their hearts and lives to Him. I wait, but I wait expectantly! Expecting Him to do a work in their lives. Praying for opportunities to share more of Jesus with them. Praying that the words I have spoken or the actions I make reflected the heart, love and life of Christ. I wait…knowing that it isn’t me who will change their hearts, but Christ.  

I wait upon the Lord for the desires of my heart. It is days like today when those desires become more of a heartache and so I wrestle with knowing that His will may be different for me and so I surrender all to Him, because when it comes down to it…I want His desires to be my desires and I want to be in His most perfect will. So I wait and cry out to Him.

I wait as friends and family struggle and face challenges that in my flesh I want to change and fix, but giving them over to the Lord knowing He has everything under control.  I wait and cry out in prayer for change, for transformation, for revelation, for truth, for healing, for deliverance, for peace, for wisdom and for some to be brought to their knees. I wait and I cry out for those I love.

The song above has become a daily reminder that in the waiting…I will serve Him…in the waiting…I will worship Him…in the waiting…I will not faint…I will keep running the race.  

Please pray that I don’t give in or give up…that I will wait patiently.

Building Roots Deep…Building Families

Hello Friends…

This month Northwest Haiti Christian Mission has jump started a  new sponsorship program…The Family Tree. We are having a sponsorship drive to have 50 of our residents…orphanage, special needs orphanage and elderly…to be fully funded. “The Forrest through the Trees” sponsorship drive began just only 13 days ago so we have a little over half way yet to go. I want to thank you ahead of time for what role you will play in the lives of our kids and elderly in bulilding roots deep and building families.

So what is the Family Tree?

I am so glad you asked:>) This is no ordinary sponsorship…we want God to build roots that go deep in each of our precious children young and old. We want to build a community of believers that will circle each of them in prayer and support them just as you would one of your own. You’re not just writing an occasional letter or getting a yearly or quarterly picture or providing for their basic needs. You are planting seeds. Seeds that together we will water together to build a firm foundation based on God’s Word and through education, medical care, and  nutrition.

For the children we have been entrusted with and knowing God’s heart is deeply and personally vested in the condition and situation of every child that is orphaned. Our vision and mission is to raise generations of children to be disciples to know, love and serve Jesus Christ for His purpose and His glory. Working together, our Haitian staff and American staff, short term missionaries and the Family Tree provide spiritually, physically and emotionally the needs to prepare the children for their future life. We desperately pray these children will grow to become Godly young men and women who seek the Lord with all their heart, soul, mind and strength and that they will make a difference in their families, churches, communities, zones and country. “Therefore go and make disciples for all nations baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you.” Mathew 28:19-20

The children with special needs I believe teach us so much more than we could ever imagine. I know for me personally they have taught me to have more joy despite the circumstances of this life. They’ve taught me how to “let go and let God”. His timing in all things is perfect. So whether we are on this earth for 3 or 4 years or 80 years or more…He knows how long we are here. I can rest in that and I can try and rest in that for these precious ones that at times struggle so hard and ones that thrive and just show us how Awesome our God is. They blow me away and bless me incredibly!!! I had the joy of spending time with them a couple of weeks ago and oh how it lifted my heart. I’ve watched first hand the power of God’s hand in miraculous ways through these kids. Kids that said would not make it and our now walking, talking, going to school. I could go on, but wouldn’t you rather see for yourself as you become one of the limbs in one of these childrens tree’s!!

The precious ones in our elderly care are so fun to hang out with and love on. Again I was able to love on them when I went to visit. I even got to dance with a couple of them:>) Here in Haiti, just like our special needs they are not seen…they are invisible and tossed to the side. We have and continue to strive to change this mind set…though so difficult…you can see the changes. Our elderly have some wise men and women…good story tellers too! We pray that they will be examples to those on our campus and in our community. These men and women get up before the sun rises and head to church for prayer and praise. This inspires me to be more in prayer!!!

Now I realize I am more connected to the kids and that is alright, but I love all of our precious ones and desire for each one to be fully sponsored. Now, those of you that know me, know I  desire God to do more than we could ever ask or imagine. I have been praying that God would speak to hearts of people  and that He would raise up people to  fully sponsored 150 kids or elderly. (You could say I want to see us go more than 50 ft. further:>)  Are you crazy Miss Beth! Well, yes I am, but God is able…more than able. He doesn’t need us, but He chooses to us just because He loves us. Wouldn’t you want to be a part of something bigger than you could ever  imagine. I know I want to see Him  be glorified and praised for what He is going to do.

 So how does this work?

Each child, special needs and elderly we nurture is supported by a Family Tree of up to ten people sponsoring at $30 a month. Gather your friends, relatives, coworkers or church groups and consider growing these precious ones together. Once you do, you’ll gain access to an exclusive Facebook group highlighting your sponsored child’s day-to-day life. It’s an easy and effective way to stay connected, to see the difference you’re making, to celebrate hope and a future in a real and tangible way. To begin this journey together there are 5 precious ones that I am personally coming alongside to help get fully sponsored. Just click on the links or you can go to our website at www.nwhcm.org to see our Family. Please consider joining our family and helping us bear fruit…fruit that will last!!!


http://nwhcm.org/sponsorship/gran-maun/sinelia-augustin  she has 8 limbs to grow on her tree.

http://nwhcm.org/sponsorship/special-needs/roselore-charlestin she has 7 limbs to grow on her tree.

http://nwhcm.org/sponsorship/our-orphanage/fabiola-felix   she has 6 limbs to grow on her tree.

http://nwhcm.org/sponsorship/our-orphanage/magislot-delicien he has 6 limbs to grow on his tree.

http://nwhcm.org/sponsorship/our-orphanage/angela-petion  she has 8 limbs to grow on her tree.


Together we can provide the life giving water to help each tree to grow closer to Christ to grow those roots deep and firm in the Word of God…He is that life giving water!!  


Who is our Example?


1 Corinthians 4:16 says, “Therefore I urge you to imitate me.” 1Corinthians 11:1 says, “Follow my example as I follow the example of Jesus Christ.”
At first glance at these Words, thinking from a worldly prospective, that Paul was a bit arrogant….stuck on himself maybe. When you look deeper into what the Word of God is really saying here though…you see what these Words intended to speak in to and who he was speaking to. Not only was he speaking to the church in Corinth, but he is speaking to us today.
The book of 1Corinthians was a letter to the church in Corinth. Notes from Bible read that “ 2 or 3 years after leaving the church he’d started in Corinth, Paul was hearing and receiving disturbing reports: Division and strife were seriously threatening this young church. Some had become spiritually arrogant, leading to problems such as sexual misconduct, wrongdoing against other believers, and abuse of spiritual gifts and misunderstandings of basic Christian teachings.” Paul wrote to restore the teachings of Jesus Christ. To remind them of the Christ who lived in them. Were they walking in Christ-like character?
Paul was absolutely confident in his character, actions and words. His actions and character spoke louder than words. As a missionary, teacher and coach do my actions speak louder than words? Paul is telling us if we walk and live in Christ-like integrity, people can look, listen, learn and follow our example. A person who hopes to be used by God must stand up to the test of individual moral persecution or scrutiny.
My Bible devotion says this, “Nothing disillusions us faster than seeing major character flaws in a leader we respect. On the other hand, nothing inspires us more than seeing an esteemed leader come forward to humbly ask forgiveness of a person or group. That willingness to be known for whom we are, sinners saved by grace, is one of the characteristics that mark Christians as different. Our example to walk in humility then becomes a discipling tool as others imitate us.
Yesterday I posted this from Voice of the Martyrs:
“Where do our steps lead? We think about the traces that Abraham’s walk left. After thousands of years Judaism, Christianity, and Islam still walk in these steps. Winds and floods could not wipe them away. Paul walked in the bloodstained steps of Christ in self-sacrifice. For two thousand years Christians could follow his example.
Be careful of your steps. You will not be the only one to walk in them.”
—Richard Wurmbrand
Since I have been back in the states this theme of discipleship, mentoring, example, Christ-like character continues to speak to me. Some days more loudly than others…like today. Honestly, this theme has been impressed upon me for as long as I can remember. From those that set a Christ-like example for me growing up to the desire to have Godly mentors in my life…leading me, teaching me, encouraging me, disciplining me, speaking truth in love…when maybe I didn’t want to listen, but listened anyway because I wanted to learn. I wanted to grow in my faith and walk with the One and Only Jesus. I am so very blessed and grateful for those that God has placed along my journey. Some for a season, some for the long-haul:>) and some that have gone to be with Jesus. I’m eternally grateful for the ones that went before me and prayed for me and for those that continue to be on their knees interceding on my behalf.
As a missionary I am even more aware of the example that Paul talks about. There is always eyes watching and ears listening to what I say and do. The people in the community, the people in the church, Ladies Bible study, the staff, the momma’s in the orphanage, other missionaries, and most of all the children. Nothing humbles me more when one of the kids picks up something I’ve said or did and they copy it. Now if it is a good thing…it so blesses my heart and encourages me and I praise Jesus for this, but when it is something not so good…Oh my heart breaks and it makes me weep!!! Sitting the child or children or even an adult down and asking for forgiveness for this action…yes humbling! This poem that one of my kids gave me years ago says a lot and reminds me every day that there are little eyes (and ears) upon us. My challenge and questions to you today is this:
Who is watching and listening to you and what will they be imitating? Will they imitate Christ that is in you?

There are little eyes upon you and they’re watching night and day.
There are little ears that quickly take in every word you say.
There are little hands all eager to do anything you do;
And little boy/girl who’s dreaming of the day s/he’ll be like you.
You’re the little child’s idol; you’re the wisest of the wise.
In her/his little mind about you no suspicions ever rise.
S/He believes in you devoutly, holds all that you say and do, in your way, when s/he’s
Grown up like you.
There’s a wide eyed little child who believes you’re always right;
And his/her eyes are always opened, and s/he watched day and night.
You are setting an example every day in all you do,
For the little child who is waiting to grow up to be like you.

“Lord I want to be just like you…’cause he wants to be just like me. Help me be a Holy example, for his inocent eyes to see. Let me be a living Bible Lord… that my little boy can read. Lord I want to be just like you, ’cause he wants to be like me.”

~ song by Phillips, Craig and Dean

Just a few pics of examples and being examples:>)

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Daughters in the Faith

This summer God richly blessed me with three beautiful daughters in the faith…Morgan, Emily and Haylee. They served as interns leading and ministering alongside of the American teams that visited us…but they did so much more as they jumped in feet first in building relationships with so many in our community, church and staff. Their heart for the Haitian people was so beautiful to witness as they ministered and loved on the children in our orphanage, as they taught childrens church each Sun. as they discipled pre-teen and teenage girls and so much more. Their passionate pursuit for God, their desire to learn and grow as leaders, their willingness to rise early together for preparation for the day and prayer, a commitment to keep each other accountable and encourage one another was a breath of fresh air and allowed me to use my gift of teaching/coaching to come alongside these ladies. They blessed this community and me personally with their tender, sincere hearts that blew  my socks off…well if I wore socks:>)

Serving in a third world country as a single woman can be difficult in and of itself, but to lead teams in this third world country at such a young age…well it takes courage, confidence and a call (from God:) Within my heart and mind Morgan, Haylee and Emily were called to Mole St. Nicholas, Haiti…”for such a time as this.” They walked out this scripture in 1 Timothy 3:11-12 with abundant grace and mercy.

                                “Command and teach these things. Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity.”

This was so awesome to witness and to encourage!!! Each of us had our moments…including myself:>)  but God used each of us to hold each other up as we locked arms in prayer.

Each of the girls came into this internship with preconcieved thoughts and plans of what the summer would be like only to discover that God was going to transform and grow their love for HIm and teach them to trust Him even more. They grew as leaders and as disciples for Christ. They stepped out of the boat…Oh so many times with the wind and waves all around to find out that He is so very Faithful. They allowed themselves  to be vulnerable and transparent as they shared their hearts with the teams in worship, prayer and devotions making it their own. Sharing their experiences and relationships of Haiti…Real Life:>) They came alongside teams to share the love of Jesus from VBS to dance camp…from discussions with girls about sex to children learning about good touch bad touch, from Womens Ministry to self-defense for women, from medical clinics to eye clinics, from hut-to hut to loving on our precious kids in the orphanage, from movie nights to construction projects…all with the intention of building relationships and taking the opportunities to share and show the love of Jesus.

As teams came and went Morgan, Emily and Haylee were able to witness and catch glimpses of how God used these teams. They were an intergral part of continuing to build on relationships started and also in sharing with the Pastor who wanted a visit from him, had questions or asked Jesus into their hearts so that he was able to follow up and begin discipleship. Our prayer is that the fruit that was bore will be fruit that will last.

Thank you girls for serving the Lord and for the example that you set for NWHCM and the Mole community. We are blessed to have such young ladies lead and serve in such an impactful way. You really did “Walk on Water.” Emily and Haylee you finished strong and Morgan I know you will do the same in St. Louise. Thank you also for all your encouragement to the teams and to the staff.

Now on a personal note…as I said at the beginning God blessed me with 3 beautiful daughters. As I have been sitting on my porch the past couple of days reflecting over the past few months I am in awe of Jesus and in the way He teaches me, loves me, encourages me and comforts me. He used Morgan, Emily and Haylee to walk together on this journey. From the start of the day together in prayer to coming alongside of them during the day, to our nightly discussions, to our sleepless and wrestless nights, to tears shed and to the incredible laughter. These experiences together can never be replaced. In the midst of it all we found God to be so very faithful, that He is in control of all things, that we can trust Him, that we can hear His voice and that He loves us so very much….just to name a few things:>) My prayer for each of you is that you will continue to “Pound the Ground” while you are stateside and that you will take what He has imparted to you this summer and allow it to grow. That you will be just as bold and courageous on your college campuses and community as you were in Mole, Haiti. I pray that you will have the opportunity to take at least one girl and disciple her and share God’s truths with her like you have done with these precious girls here. I pray that things will not get so busy that your time with the Lord is sacrificed. I pray a hedge of protection around this time for it is the most important time of your day!! Continue to walk out 1Thessalonians 5:16-18…for this is God’s will. Lastly know that you have one who calls you each her daughter that is praying for you, is proud of you and who loves you so very much!!! “Thank you ladies, for giving to the Lord. I am a life that is changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave.” You allowed God to use you as His instrument and the symphony He created touched so many lives including my own. You are all so beautiful inside and out!!!

O.K. now I am officially tearing up…I know hard to believe;>)

Continue to pray for these girls as they transition back to states…pray for rest, reflection and refilling. Also pray for Morgan as she continues to serve in St. Louise these last couple of weeks.

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Discipleship and Donkeys

Back in March a group of our Ladies Ministry went out with the soul purpose to find single moms that didn’t know Jesus and  were struggling with taking care of there kids and we had found out that they were so desprate that some were sending there girls out to the beach during the weekends to make money by prostituting them…just so they could have money for food. These moms by cultural standards have already been deemed unworthy and unexcepted. Going out to there homes and meeting these precious ladies was such a priviledge and joy. Inviting them to come and meet with us each Tues. to be encouraged, loved on and to share Jesus with them. We had 18 ladies that have come faithfully for the past couple of months and now over half of them have begun coming to church and about 10 of them have accepted Jesus. From the first day I had the joy of bringing a message to them my heart longed for each lady to know the Jesus I know and love. Sharing with them who they are in Christ, Who Christ is and Why Christ? Sharing the hope they too can have by believing in Him and placing their faith in Him alone. That He is he Way, the Truth and the Life. Watching their beautiful faces each week…looking into their eyes and seeing the pain, but also seeing a desire for Hope. A hope that is not found on sinking sand, but on the Solid Rock.

We paired each lady up with one of our Dames and each week they went to their disciplers home to encourage them and pray with them. They shared with them and blessed them in small ways not knowing that the last meeting they would recieve something special. Our ladies last week drove to Marouge, which is about an hour and half drive up the moutain to the market and they each brought back a donkey to give to their disciple. Now what I haven’t told you is that these ladies walked these donkey back down the mountain down a narrow path in the heat of the day for 5 long hours. Now these ladies were young and old, not athletic and the sandals they wore…well you could say there were quite a few flat tires. They were worn through and through. I had no idea they were doing this last Tues. until they showed up and Jody told me what they had done. I was totally overwhelmed to the point I wasn’t sure if I could give the message I had for the Discipleship group.

I gathered myself and the message I had originally planned, well it went a different direction and as I told Jody…I don’t remember all that I said accept I began with the song….I Decided to Follow Jesus. Sharing with them to put the world behind them and the cross before them. I also remember sharing the story of the wise and foolish builder and that our hope is on the Solid Rock and that we should not build on sinking sand.

Now…you might ask…Why on earth did they walk all that way pulling a donkey, knowing that this wasn’t for them. The simple and plain truth….Because these ladies love Jesus and they want these ladies to know Jesus too. They didn’t expect anything in return…they wanted to be a blessing. I believe this act of love and service spoke powerfully to these ladies as I watched some of these ladies tear up and to hear their thanks to them and to God. It was a festival of thanksgiving and all those who looked on and witnessed all of this were touched as well.

If you go to http://molehaiti.org blog “Donkey Day” you can read a little more about last weeks blessing. Today we gave out 7 more donkeys as we couldn’t get them all last week. Below are pics of the ladies. They couldn’t stop thanking Jesus  and was so incredibly gracious. This was so beautiful to see and humbled to be a part of.

Please pray for these ladies…pray that they don’t give up hope…that they continue to pursue Jesus…that these donkeys will open up opportunities to provide for their families…that they won’t stop meeting together.

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Unexpected Opportunities

This afternoon I headed to the church because I thought we were having baptism service today. Well my Creole is a work in progress…what I believed the Pastor said yesterday was only half right. I didn’t hear the part where he said that those that were baptized a couple of weeks ago have class today at 3pm. C’est la vie:>) I left a bit early because I always like to stop a talk with those in the community or love on the kids. God gave me several Unexpected Opportunities!

 I ran into a young man that I made a really bad impression on a couple of weeks ago. Now it isn’t my mission to come here and expect to have everyone love me. I expect those that don’t like me at all because I serve the One that told us we would have trouble in this world. The problem was I made Jesus look bad on this particular day. We had a group ministering to our youth and we were only allowing the youth inside the courtyard of the church. I was to stand at one of the entry ways to keep the little ones from coming in. Lets just say I was a bit overwhelmed and I really dislike being a bouncer, so to speak. We have a system of doing things here and sometimes it just stinks, but if we don’t do it this way it will be more harmful than good. If you have ever read the book “When Helping Hurts” this is what I am speaking of. Anyway this young man came in and was trying to sell things to the Americans. I tried, in the best Creole I could, that he needed to speak with Pierre and that we didn’t sell things this way. (We have a market day for our groups where anyone from the community can come and sell their goods, but you have to speak to Pierre first.) Well I was a bit stressed and overwhelmed with the kids and I know the way I spoke to him was very short and with frustration. Not a good moment and not a good time. The next day I recieve a long written note from this young man. He wrote with great passion and well basically called me out and believed I was trying to keep him from selling his things. I was devastated by my actions and told Pierre I wanted to set a meeting with him to talk with him and ask him to forgive me. He did and we all sat down together and talked everything out. I was never so humbled and asked for his forgiveness. We explained the system we use and we invited him to our next market day. I wasn’t sure if he really forgave me until today….The unexpected opportunity… I saw him today and went over to him and called him by name (which surprised him) and asked how he was doing. He smiled and told me things were good and to have a good day. I am grateful for this young man and for his passion for his people. I do pray for he will come to know Jesus. I pray today that he saw more of Jesus than who he met a couple of weeks ago!!!

I continued my walk and ran into my sweet friend Santania. She was one of my English students and she has been helping translate the past couple of months. She was heading to the church too to work with the youth for service tomorrow. As usual nothing is ever on time so we had the opportunity to talk and to work on our language skills. I spoke in Creole and she spoke in English. I always like talking with her and getting to know her more.  Being able to encourage her in her walk and to laugh with her. I love the friendship that we have. This was a beautiful unexpected opportunity.

Since there was no baptism I walked the campus and prayed for yesterday, today and the future of those that will come here. I prayed for the foundation of this campus to stay strong and be built on the Word of God!!! I went and dropped in on the beautiful children. Tizzie was practicing the song the kids will sing in the morning. They were so precious and boy did they sing with heart. They melted my heart as I held back the tears. After Tizzie was finished I was surrounded….they circled me up and tried tickling me. Just picking them up and hugging them tightly brings joy to this old heart…o.k. maybe not that old, but my body sure feels it :>) Our littlest, Fabiola, was in her crib and I walked over and said her name sweetly…she stood up and gave me the biggest smile. Oh how I love her sweet smile. Tizzie picked her up and stood her up and she was walking almost with no help. She was so proud of herself. My unexpected opportunity to love on these children and to let them know how much Jesus loves them. Lord, can I love any deeper? These kids have my heart and truth be told our Momma’s too! Love these ladies and how their faith is growing.

My return home was met with heartbreak. I heard screaming in the distance as I came closer to home. As I grew closer the screams were louder and I heard a whip. Then I heard I young man say, “You need to listen to your master.” I watched a young girl, only 10 or 11 run out of a door with the man grabbing her and whipping her then shoving a broom into her hand and then more of the whip. He saw me and stopped everyone on the street watched me watch him. One young man tried telling him to stop.  I stood there not knowing what to do except to stare at him with the anger that was in my heart. He walked back into the house and I asked the little one if she was alright. With tears in her eyes she said yes, but I knew, by her face, if she said anything else she probably would have been beaten more. I stood there for what seemed hours just looking at the door…knowing he was right there looking at me. This my dear friends is what burdens our hearts. Slavery, physical and sexual abuse, prostitution…this is not right…in any country!!!! My unexpected opportunity here was to pinpoint where another offender is and to circle them up in prayer. To keep my eyes wide open and if need be stare him down again.

Your unexpected opportunity is to please pray for the children and young people of the Mole. They need to know they are loved and that someone cares.Pray for their protection.  Pray for wisdom and discernment as we come across more unexpected opportunities. Pray that they will see Jesus in us.


Whom Will You Serve?

He must increase; but I must decrease. John 3:30

This morning the kids came into class all ready to tell who did what, who’s fault it was, who was angry with who and what crazy dream they had that night. I walked out and shut the door…about minutes later I came in with a basin of water and a towel and began to wash the kids feet. For the first time in quite a while they had nothing to say…and many of you know these precious ones:>) I began to tell them of Jesus and His disciples in the upper room. I told them that during Jesus’ time when they went into a home there would be someone there to wash the dust and dirt from their feet. The roads were dusty and dirty and just like here, people walked from place to place with no shoes or wore sandals. It was a common practice to clean those dusty, dirty feet.

I told them how Jesus went, picked up the basin, wrapped a towel around Himself and began to wash the disciples feet. I explained how Peter didn’t want His Jesus to stoop down to do this. That this was considered a lowly position…a humble position. Just as David the shepherd boy was looked upon as a lowly position…being a shepherd. He was looked down upon because he was probably dirty, dusty and smelled like the sheep that he lovingly took care of . This is the position that a foot washer played then. For Jesus to do this….Peter didn’t want his Teacher, Friend, God’s Son to bend the knee to him. Jesus explained to Peter that He had come to serve, not to be served. I explained to the kids that this is why I came…this is why their Daddy and Mommy came…why their Paw Paw, Nanna, Uncles and Aunts do what they do….because they desire to serve the One who sent them. 

By the time I reached the last kiddo I was overwhelmed with emotion. Overwhelmed by the example Jesus sets for us. He has shown us how to serve and be humble. I have fallen short so many times. I have spoken when I should have kept my mouth shut. I have kept my mouth shut when I should have spoke. I have allowed past sins to tempt me and my mind. As I began to pray for the kids and for the reason we are here in Haiti my heart flooded with all those that do not know Him. That haven’t experienced the abundant life that comes with wallking with Jesus Christ. “It is by His grace that I have been saved through faith in Jesus.” He alone has set me free….He paid the price for me by sacrificing His life. There is no greater love than this. He took upon His self all of my sins and was willing to die for them. What other God can we say do this? He freely gives us the choice to accept Him….some will and sadly some will choose to go their own way. Living in a country where you can feel the presence of evil and at times even see it….it makes me grateful that I have Jesus and that He leads me.

I have come to Haiti to serve….to serve the Castillo family as they serve….to serve the children in the orphanage…to serve the children in Mole St. Nicholas….to serve the women in the Mole…to serve Christ Alone, because He is worthy.

Philippians 2:1-18

My question to you is….Whom will you serve?


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